"i believe in god, only i spell it n a t u r e."

"study nature, love nature, stay close to nature.  It will never fail you." 

frank lloyd wright

spoken like a true champ. i've been trying more than ever to live by these words, only i didn't realize it until this morning.  i've discovered there's nothing nicer than waking up early,  seeing the sun shine directly into my living room for the first time and enjoying a big glass full of this:

good belly! its called good belly! and its delicious! and its good for my belly!  look into probiotics; you won't regret it. 

on a crafty note:

i am suuuuuch a huge fan of what this lady, RESURRECTION FERN is doing with rocks and feathers and, well, ferns.  her choreography of nature is so fresh yet timeless all at once.  i've never wanted to cuddle with a rock more than at this very moment.  resurrection fern should be the president of my life, or at least my best friend.  if you really love me you'll buy me these prints one day. please?

i first laid eyes on her jazz, HERE. czech it out for other (not-equally) cute stuff.

thank god for that smile on your face

laurenstein 
love in this club

thank you scatterbrainphotography  for capturing these tender moments 

green for spreeeng

a spectracular gift

an unexplainable weakness for white buildings and blue skies
holybonzi, gay.

view from mc'dun

today's a day for nothing but passion pit, architecture in helsinki, and twin green tea frappachinos w/nitza, forreal.  new layout (thanks to sean who is en route to speaking the blog language fluently). new colors thanks to my awkward eye.  

surprisingly my productivity level seems to be at an all time high lately.  got a lil' crafty.  got a lil' serious. trying to get straight Az this semester.  baked some cranberry bread too.  

put together a new display on my mantle that i'm pretty happy with so far.  i can never keep anything up there though.  my fireplace is like the nest where ideas are born and then find better places to live. it's ok though. it keeps me on my toes. 

 

new bedtime accessory...

got a night guard. it's really sexy. 

under a spell

can't stop listening to crimewave. crystal castles makes me move in ways i didn't know i could.

i have a problem. actually two.

actually a lot but i'm only going to talk about two.

1. i buy dishes too much. 

four new mugs. nitza's going to be so mad.  something just comes over me and i cant help but buy a set of two.  and a set of two usually turns into a set of four and a set of four sometimes turns into all of them in the store.  it's a little hard to explain but i'm just really nuts about my future kitchen.  i long for a place of permanence where i can disperse what i've collected for so many years.  being attached to such fragile things has really been hard on my health though. i think my heart is turning into porcelain. each chip feels like a fracture in my chest.  

2. i'm obsessed with a gardenia

my new baby plant is thriving, one bloom after the next. the leaves are a deep, healthy emerald, and the scent so sweet, almost an instant headache.  like a bruise.  the week my dad died  one of tata's gardenias bloomed unseasonally, so we put it in his pocket.  they remind me of him. maybe thats why their intense fragrance is so comforting but sharp and overwhelming at the very same time. now their plants are pale and bare. it really upsets me to see them so fragile.  this flower has somehow come to represent my family, my roots.  tata and jedo are getting older and its getting more and more apparent that i've ignored a great source of wealth.  i have some recipes written down but all of jedos cookbooks are written in arabic.  i will learn arabic and i will go to lebanon.  i will live there one day with a garden of gardenias and i will eat lebni and zeitune for breakfast every morning.  i just want everything to be beautiful for everyone forever.